Always there, in the back of my mind

I went for a walk with you today,
Remembered the things that you used to say,
Remembered that all-knowing look in your eye,
As you silently watched the world pass you by.

I looked to the stars as I cried silent tears
and I wondered why nothing is as it appears,
There were so many stars, tiny jewels in the sky
and I wished that we hadn't let time pass us by.

And of all of the stars that I see every night,
I find the most comfort in those that burn bright,
Though their energy fails and they slip from my view,
Their short-lived wonder reminds me of you.

I realise now that what you left behind,
Are the things that kept your free spirit confined,
I now understand why you had to go
but there's so many things that I still do now know.

I ask myself questions, but the answers I fear,
Would things be different if you were still here?
How can I be sure that you hear what I say?
I must wait - I will have all the answers one day.

So my memory of you is all that remains
but at least I know now you are free of your chains
and I know that you'll never leave me behind,
For you'll always be there, in the back of my mind.